and I’m pouring crimson regret

It just gone midnight and I’m still up – with lots on my mind.

Do you ever get times where you just sit and let things swirl around whilst you try to make sense of them?

It seems that’s all I ever seem to get recently.

poor Daniel, he’s always asking me what wrong, but nothings wrong, just lots to digest.

someone reminds me of me, the old me, which is a scary thing. sometimes I feel like I want to slip back into my old self. the only thing stopping me is the disappointment of others. it’s what stopped me in the end.

is the door really closed?

to be honest? I really don’t know. I honestly like to think so.

sumpy sana squashed banana

I am now on page 205 of Northern Lights. It’s so very good. Even though I was only a hundred or so pages into the book, I still went to see the film, and I was quite disappointed.
It was an ok film, the book is just SOOO much better.

I’m quite tired today, because I got in late night and didn’t go to bed till gone 11. I had a late night the day before too, so it’s all catching up with me. How very annoying.

Yesterday evening Beth and I went to a chinese exhibition at the British Museum (it was on this time!) and we sampled tea’s, watched a Shaolin display, fan dancing, ribbon dancing. The dim sum sections was ridiculously expensive, so we left.

We then walked down Charing Cross road and came across this food court place. It was so cool. It had Chinese Zone, Chicken Zone, Moroccan Zone, Kebab Zone, Oyster and Sushi Zone, drinks zone. how cool. and so cheap to eat there!

anyhoo – got to run – got work to do, and I want to help Vic look at a picture of her enemy…..don’t ask.

laters!

my spout is leaking

HELLO!

Somebody asked me today, “what happened to your blog?”
and then it dawned on me….I’m getting to the stage where I just don’t bother anymore. The stage where my blogs just…..stop.

It happens each and everytime I attempt a blog. I start – get all geared up and then just stop.

The same thing used to happen with diaries….although looking back and reading what I wrote was down right hilarious!

So whats new with me.

Christmas shopping is almost done – I think. Just need to get one more thing. Other than that, it’s all done.
Daniel and I are planning a trip away in April. We’re thinking about Naples. Daniel needs to get his passport sorted first.

Had my check up with the nurse today, and I’ve lost nearly 2 kilos since my last check up. My blood pressure was a bit high, so she took it again, and it was ok the second time round.

Work has been manic. IT have made changes to the system and every contract has rolled over and contractors are being asked to reaccept them, and the contracts aren’t even active ones, so I have had numerous requests to delete/end them. It’s been so very busy.

Daniel and I are going on a date tomorrow. I’m really looking forward to it. Pizza Express followed (possibly) by the cinema. We may see the golden compass, if there are tickets left. I’ve started reading the books this evening. I’ve only got to page 82, and then my facebook addiction took over.

So – looking back at the week gone by. Nothing much has happened. Can’t really remember last week. Friday evening I went out with Tracey, Kerry and Amy, to Pizza Express in Blackheath village. We had a great time. Saturday there were engineering works, so it took me over 2 hours to get to Daniels. nightmare!
Alan did fajitas for dinner, and I remember christmassy stuff. like the Christmas tree being put up. or maybe that was sunday. Sophie made really yummy pizza on Sunday too. my favourite was the baked bean one. it was amazing! loved it!
other than that – not much has gone on in my mad loon world.

such as boredom is my life

well I’m at home again today. still ill and drugged up to the eyeballs with painkillers, which don’t seem to be doing much.

It’s back to work tomorrow. I don’t care if the stupid lump is still on my throat. I cannot take another day of doing nothing.

the good news is that my gums aren’t swollen anymore, although I do get a massive headache whenever I sit up, and I feel faint which isn’t so good.
hopefully that will pass.

Daniel and I are thinking of going on holiday, although we don’t know where. We’ve thought about Edinburgh, Dublin, Rome. so far we’re not sure. Daniel wants to go somewhere where they speak English. I want to go somewhere a bit warm and sunny. it’s not going to be until April next year, so I guess we have plenty of time.

It’d be nice to get a way for a while, get away and have fun. just the two of us.

well I guess it’s back to watching crappy ole tv now.

over and out.

All about dental abscesses

ok, so I decided to google it…..ew!

A dental abscess is an infection of the mouth, face, jaw, or throat that begins as a tooth infection or cavity.

  • Bacteria from a cavity can extend into the gums, the cheek, the throat, beneath the tongue, or even into the jaw or facial bones. A dental abscess can become very painful when tissues become inflamed.
  • Pus collects at the site of the infection and will become progressively more painful until it either ruptures and drains on its own or is drained surgically.
  • Sometimes the infection can progress to the point where swelling threatens to block the airway, causing difficulty breathing. Dental abscesses can also make you generally ill, with nausea, vomiting, fevers, chills, and sweats.

A doctor or dentist can determine by physical examination if you have a drainable abscess. X-rays of the teeth may be necessary to show small abscesses that are at the deepest part of the tooth. Signs observed by the doctor, including nausea, vomiting, fever, chills, or diarrhea, may indicate that the infection has progressed to the point where it is making your whole body sick.

The doctor may decide to cut open the abscess and allow the pus to drain. Unless the abscess ruptures on its own, this is the only way that the infection can be cured. People with dental abscesses are typically prescribed pain relievers and, at the discretion of the doctor, antibiotics to fight the infection. An abscess that has extended to the floor of the mouth or to the neck may need to be drained in the operating room under anesthesia.

oh boy…i hope it’s not an abscess……

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At the moment, I’m laying in bed, feeling sorry for myself and feeling oh so shit.
My gums are still swollen, and my lymph nodes are swollen and painful.
I nearly passed out on the train into work this morning, so when I got to Charing Cross, I walked to Soho and saw a nurse at the Walkin Centre.
Aparantly my lymph nodes are acting up because of an infection in my body. My tonsils are fine, my chest is fine, everywhere else is fine, except my gum. Which is still a bit swollen. The nurse has put me on a 7 day course of antibiotics. (argh) and I have to see a dentist now, as she suspects that it is an abscess. oh joy!

I have dentist on Friday, so we’ll see then i suppose. I guess they’ll have to take x-rays and that should be fun, seeing as I have a tiny mouth, and last time i had xrays done, it was a challenge even using the kiddies xray films.

I don’t even know what kind of treatment I’ll need if it’s an abscess.
I’m thinking I might stick Pride and Prejudice in teh DVD player and sink under the duvet.

over and out.

an update

So I haven’t blogged in a while. about a week or so I guess. At the moment I’m sitting/laying in bed, watching Ella Enchanted, with very swollen painful glands. My gums are swollen too, which leads me to believe I have contracted yet another infection. oh yay.

I got my order form for the Witchfest Yule Ball today. I don’t think Daniel will want to go, so I think I might give it a miss. Maybe next year. maybe.

so what’s new with me?

On Wednesday Daniel took Sophie and I to see the Lion King in the West End. It was really really good. I totally enjoyed myself. We met in Starbucks on the Strand, and the blond woman who served me was awful. She spoke hardly any English, and I had to explain to her that my panini was meant to go on the grill before being served. Silly lady.

Thursdays – I can’t really remember what I did.
Friday – Daniel came round to my house for the first time. I was really nervous. My mum cooked us dinner (not people pie to Daniel’s relief…) We spent Friday evening watching tv and what not. And then I basically played good host for Saturday. Normally when I’m at Daniel’s house, he’s waits on me hand and foot, so now it was my turn. 🙂
We watched Rose Red (well the first half). It’s a great film. Shit scary, but really good.

Sunday we went to Daniels, and went to GBK. It was ok. I must say I prefer Ultimate Burger. At GBK they put herbs and crap in the garlic mayo – they had lemon grass in it. not so nice. the chili mayo was yum yum yum though.

I started to watch Schindlers list yesterday evening, but Daniel was doing Uni work and missed the first bit, so I stopped watching it. Daniel wants to see it, so I think I may buy it. 🙂

Today it was back to work. feels like it should be Tuesday, but it’s not. a bit odd.

I’m going to start my world domination game with Daniel now.

over and out.

piss me off will you??? I think not you little twerp.

First things first – the weekend. Was excellent.
Friday was Daniel’s leaving drink. Very funny. Daniel, Till and Drew dancing – hilarious! Betting on the Buses. Great fun all in all I feel. I will be putting photo’s and video’s on facebook, so please do have a look!
Saturday – I spent the whole day in bed I believe. I was so tired. I did promise Daniel I would watch Evil Dead. Started to watch it and I fell asleep! Felt very bad about that. 🙁
Sunday – just lazed about. Daniel’s mum did a lovely breakfast, and Tash and Alan made a really scrummy roast dinner.
Monday back to work today.
Right Mondays – and the rant begins.
Ready? Set? GO!!!
The world is going to end on a Monday. Monday’s are generally bad for most people, I normally don’t have issues with Mondays but today has been totally shit so far, and it’s only reached 1 p.m. in the day. I still have 4 hours to go.

The IT department seem to be making my job so much harder. I sent a query to IT asking if someone changes data on their account with us, is a notification email sent to the CSM, only to receive back “this is not an IT issue, please speak to your manager”. Firstly, from my understanding this is an IT query. I am simply asking if we change data does a notification get sent out. Surely IT create the system, so they should know. Secondly, I am the manager of my department, my line manager is the Head of our Client Services Operations Department….if IT don’t know the answer, I don’t think she’s going to know, she didn’t build the bloody system.
I have to do a presentation next Monday to our new employee’s about our department. So using my initiative (apparently this isn’t built into most people now-a days, perhaps more research should be put into gene therapy to see why this gene isn’t included in the DNA helix!) I thought it would be good to do a presentation on this….chances are they are more likely to retain the information I tell them. So I used to have PowerPoint upstairs, and WAHLA! Now I don’t. So I email IT, asking can I please have this application re-installed, and stating the reasons I need it, to be told by the IT director no. I tell you what. Why don’t you do my presentation next Monday.

Right now I am like PMT lady with a shotgun and hell bent on blowing anyone up who pisses me off. Hopefully this will subside as the day goes on (already eaten shit loads of chocolate!). Poor Daniel, he needs to write a complaint letter to Mesh (the manufacture place for his PC). I really wish he would let me do it, so I can vent my anger.

Grrrrr!!!!!!!!